Live On

Bought a new CD from a local musician, Judy Holmes. A few of her songs really speak to me...

These are part of the lyrics of her song.. "Live On"

"It's a struggle right now, but you're so strong. it seems like forever, but it won't be long."

"You'll be starting your new life. It's worth all the pain and strife. Look forward to it, embrace it. Use your passion to ignite it."

"When you find yourself and you will. You'll be glad you climbed up that hill. You're new journey will start. Your head will finally agree with your heart."

"Live on Baby, Live On... Live on Baby, Live On..."

Live on Robin... Live on....

Life Sucks

Dear Blog,

Yeah yeah yeah... I know... I'm a lousy blogger... only blog when I just can't handle it any more...

I really don't think I can say what's going on... heck...I don't think I know what's going on.  I will probably have to start a whole new blog just to talk about all of this... but just wanted to tell ya... life really sucks right now... so if you feel compelled.... I'd appreciate a vote of encouragement.

Thanks for being here for me Blog.  

Music

I love music.  I think I've told you that Mr. Blog... but... music is the center of my soul.  I feel it so far within.  It's magic.  It holds me.  

I have a huge variety of musical likes... I love the 70's, the 80's, the 90's the 00's and current music.

I love a little country... a lot of rock n roll.

I love the hard stuff... 

I love the soft stuff...

I love the classical stuff..

I love the jazzy stuff...

I love music!

Blog Time!

Hey blog. How ya doing? I know... you've been so neglected lately. I've been thinking about you lots but just haven't taken the time to actually write on ya. I appreciate the fact you're still here for me when I need you... Lyrics are powerful things... Make you think. Probably won't reveal the lyrics to the song I'm thinking of, cuz you'll really think I've lost it. :o) You'll be sending me to the nearest mental hospital. :0)

So many things are going on at work. Exciting things. My future is beginning to slowly take shape. I really don't know where I'm going or where I'm heading. I just know I'm going. Opportunities, huge opportunities, are being offered to me. So huge... I can't even put into words what this could mean for me.

"The ball is in my court". But what if I drop the ball? What if I can't do it? What if I'm taken on more than is actually in my abilities? What if I drown? What if I sink? What if I fail? God, you know how I feel about failing....

I feel great pressure to not only do a good job... but to do a great job. Pressure I put on myself, but it's very very important. This could impact the entire school district. Which could impact thousands and thousands of students. This could impact the future of our entire country. Entire world.

Must be because I'm tired today...because I don't usually get so worldly... so philosophical. But really...no matter what I think, this impacts not just me. It impacts at least 600 kids. Hopefully more. I get one shot at it.

Wish me luck blog. I'm gonna need it. And thanks for being here for me! I have a feeling we'll be chatting a lot this summer. :0)

My Type

Your Type is
ESFP

Extraverted	Sensing	Feeling	Perceiving
Strength of the preferences %
44	50	62	56

Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:

• moderately expressed extravert
  
• moderately expressed sensing personality
  
• distinctively expressed feeling personality
  
• moderately expressed perceiving personality

Find out your type:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

It's Just Not Right

America....I'm disappointed in you. In fact, I'm disappointed in the whole world! Today as we inaugurated a new president people were in awe, mesmerised. People were glued to the television (not me). Just to see a ceremony. My question is, why is it that the past 4 presidents (the ones I've remembered in my life time) inauguration days seemed far less important. Why is this man any different? He is a man. He is not more/nor less important than any other person we have selected as our president, and yet, the whole world it seems is making this a huge deal. A bigger deal than they have in the recent past. To be honest, I feel sorry for Obama. The American people, and the world for that matter, have set such high expectations for him. It seems that the bar has been set too high for the man. I sure hope he can achieve them, but I fear that he may fall short (not because of his own capabilities) of the dreams Americans and the world have of him. Just remember America. His is just a man. Undoubtedly, he will do the best job he can, just as every other president before him has. He will make mistakes. He will do great things, just as every other president has done (some more rememberable than others). Let's just not set him up to fail by setting our expectations too high America!

Let me Introduce Myself

Hello. I am one of the most confident unconfident people you will ever meet. I have strong opinions but am scared to death to voice them. I have a pretty outgoing personality, but am quick to "pull in the reins" when I feel unimportant. It would be so much easier to just crawl under a rock, and I try...I really do, but often, I can't stay there.

My mother gave me my confidence. She taught me to be who I am. To be strong.
School taught me to be unconfident. I learned quickly in elementary school where I truly belonged. As I've become an adult, things that mattered in K-12 social education don't anymore. I'm on a more equal playing field. However, the damage created in those 13 years of schooling is not as easily erased.

I "idolize" people. Those people I want to become. I put them on pedestals higher than myself to keep myself in check. I'm always trying to reach their status, but as I get closer, I keep raising their pedestal, just out of reach. I say I want to be their equal someday. I want to earn that status, with hard work (obviously), but I don't think I ever will, because as I come closer, I raise their pedestal even higher....just out of reach. I'm always thinking I'm not good enough, don't know enough.

I am intimidated very easily. Especially in areas I don't feel I am even close to the most knowledgeable. I look in awe towards KL, DR, TH, CP, KP...etc.... And when I'm recognized by one of these people, it's like that pat on the back that the teacher gives you, that makes you think briefly for a moment that maybe...just maybe...you will be an equal someday...but then...reality hits.

I'm a nobody...wanting to be a somebody... Heart and head battling against each other. Desire and reality at war. Someday, I'll be the person I want to be. It's just going to take time...lots of time...